Throughout my stay with Serena Joy and the Commander, I was partnered with another handmaid named Ofglen for walks to the market. Ofglen is part of the resistance and tries to confirm that I am a member to by uttering something about a May day. However, I did not get the message. One day she asked me in front of the computerized prayers if she thought God heard these machines. I said I didn't. We realized that both of us were both not real believers. We enjoyed each others company now. However, one day they realized she was a member of the resistance and they were coming to get her and she committed suicide before they could get to her. She was brave beyond any measure and I miss her terribly. She helped me through the rough time of this era of this new time.
So Nick and I were finally able to conceive a child and in the process I fell heard for Nick. I began to love him more and more. One day during my pregnancy, these Eyes came. (Nick is a Eye and Eyes are a government spy agency) Nick was part of the resistance and this was a ploy to get me out of this horrible world. Nick helped me escape this dreadful dystopia. Nick had two motives Ofglen was my partner and she was suspected. And of course they would question me, so what if I was to give him away. He could be murdered. The other reason was that he really did love me and his child i was carrying. I was free to and from....or was I?
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
This Chance
This first one I met was the wife. She had a familiar face that I soon recognized as Serena Joy, a popular televangelist. She was spiteful and I understand perfectly, since who wants her husband *ahem* reproducing with another lady?
I met the rest of them. Cora, Rita, Nick, and my new Commander. They were pleasant mostly for the situation.
One night I went downstairs um....to steal something small just to have something one little possession. Nick sneaked up behind me and kissed me. Wow did I feel passion, I actually felt that someone might love me. Than Nick uttered that the Commander wanted to see me in his office.
So I went. What else could I do? When I walked in he greeted me and asked, "Would you play scrabble with me?" Scrabble, huh really? Well, I obliged and we started and intense game of a forbidden game. The Commander when we were finished asked me to kiss him. Of course I had to.
On one of the next Ceremony nights (nights where the commander tries to impregnate me), the Commander almost gave everything away. He tried to touch my face tenderly. Luckily, I caught this and moved the other way. I hope Serena Joy did not realize! The next time I went to his office, I sort of yelled at him for doing this. We had several nights of scrabble playing. Whenever Serena Joy was not home for the night.
On one of the nights I was with the Commander, he took me to a prostitution club thing called Jezebel's. I was dressed like a naughty lady or a gardening tool name. There at the club, I ran into Moria who had escaped from the gym. I was so happy to see her and we went into the bathroom and talked about life. Apparently, they caught her again and gave her this option or the Colonies to be a unwoman. We talked for awhile and then had to leave. This was the last time I ever saw my best friend ever again.
I need to have a baby and soon! I'm pretty old for a handmaid being 33 years old. I need a baby to not go to the Colonies. Once, a doctor even said he would give me a child himself. Later, Serena Joy came up with an idea: have Nick give me a baby. We did just that.
I met the rest of them. Cora, Rita, Nick, and my new Commander. They were pleasant mostly for the situation.
One night I went downstairs um....to steal something small just to have something one little possession. Nick sneaked up behind me and kissed me. Wow did I feel passion, I actually felt that someone might love me. Than Nick uttered that the Commander wanted to see me in his office.
So I went. What else could I do? When I walked in he greeted me and asked, "Would you play scrabble with me?" Scrabble, huh really? Well, I obliged and we started and intense game of a forbidden game. The Commander when we were finished asked me to kiss him. Of course I had to.
On one of the next Ceremony nights (nights where the commander tries to impregnate me), the Commander almost gave everything away. He tried to touch my face tenderly. Luckily, I caught this and moved the other way. I hope Serena Joy did not realize! The next time I went to his office, I sort of yelled at him for doing this. We had several nights of scrabble playing. Whenever Serena Joy was not home for the night.
On one of the nights I was with the Commander, he took me to a prostitution club thing called Jezebel's. I was dressed like a naughty lady or a gardening tool name. There at the club, I ran into Moria who had escaped from the gym. I was so happy to see her and we went into the bathroom and talked about life. Apparently, they caught her again and gave her this option or the Colonies to be a unwoman. We talked for awhile and then had to leave. This was the last time I ever saw my best friend ever again.
I need to have a baby and soon! I'm pretty old for a handmaid being 33 years old. I need a baby to not go to the Colonies. Once, a doctor even said he would give me a child himself. Later, Serena Joy came up with an idea: have Nick give me a baby. We did just that.
After Capture.
They took her away. They gave me two choices become and unwoman or become a handmaid. I chose the later.
So here I am in place that used to be a gym, now filled with other girls covered in red like myself. How can I get out of here? There is no escape. I've been brainwashed for how the governement wants me to be. Soon I'll be sent to a Commander where I will hopefully conceive a child. That way I will NEVER EVER become an unwoman.
The first two commanders were unsuccessful. This is my third chance. DEAR GOD! help me!
So here I am in place that used to be a gym, now filled with other girls covered in red like myself. How can I get out of here? There is no escape. I've been brainwashed for how the governement wants me to be. Soon I'll be sent to a Commander where I will hopefully conceive a child. That way I will NEVER EVER become an unwoman.
The first two commanders were unsuccessful. This is my third chance. DEAR GOD! help me!
The beginning of the present.
Writing this blog is very dangerous for me now. Women of this time and age can not read or write at all....if some one were to come in right now I'd be in tons of trouble. However, I'm willing to take the chance to tell you, my reader, about what actually is happening in the new United States of America.
So dear reader,
This change in government all started when these Muslim terrorist came in and machine gunned the senate and the president of the time. Everything was extremely disorganized after that, and the step in government made the excuse that we didn't have to have a new election yet. So we never got another senate or president democratically. With the government in rubbles, things started to get out of hand. We experienced several bombings and several murders and mysterious disappearances. At this time my little girl was in kindergarten and I was very frighten that she would just disappear like a few other children had. This time was very scary to live in. We had freedom to do anything back then, but soon things changed.
One day and I remember it well, I was walking to work and stopped by my favorite little stand that was run by this woman who had my Compucard number memorized. The lady was not there for some reason and was replaced by this young man who wasn’t really that friendly. When I tried to buy my cigarettes using my Compucard, it didn’t work. (so you know Compucards are like credit cards) The man handed back and I walked away frustrated and smokeless. My thoughts were I could get a ciggie from one of the other girls and call the stupid Compucard company, those new damn-fangled inventions! When I called I received a recording that said the lines were overloaded. Oh well! I decided I better get started on my work, but just then the man in charge came in. My boss said all of us were let go. He also said it was the law, and that if we don’t leave, the army with machine guns were going to come in and make us leave. Wait a minute aren’t they supposed to protect us, not harm us? Seeing the army, I fled as fast as I could without sprinting my way home.
Once at home I tried everything to relax myself it didn’t work that well. I called the Compucard and got the same recording. Than I tried my mother and my best friend Moria. Neither of them picked up. I was getting very anxious at that point and tried Moria again. This time she answered and was over at my house in a matter of moments. Once here, Moria reported to me that every Compucard account with an F on it was frozen. Apparently, women can’t hold any property anymore so all our cash has been giving to the next male kin.
After our little chat I went and picked up my daughter from school; and shortly after, Luke, my husband came home. I started sobbing about the frozen accounts and Luke comforted me by saying he’d always be there for me.
Soon we decided we had to leave the United States and head to Canada. We got the fake passports and fake visa and faked that we were just going for a day trip. However, we were caught and we tried to run away. My daughter and I were caught together. I heard shots in the distance.
United States ==> Canada
So dear reader,
This change in government all started when these Muslim terrorist came in and machine gunned the senate and the president of the time. Everything was extremely disorganized after that, and the step in government made the excuse that we didn't have to have a new election yet. So we never got another senate or president democratically. With the government in rubbles, things started to get out of hand. We experienced several bombings and several murders and mysterious disappearances. At this time my little girl was in kindergarten and I was very frighten that she would just disappear like a few other children had. This time was very scary to live in. We had freedom to do anything back then, but soon things changed.
One day and I remember it well, I was walking to work and stopped by my favorite little stand that was run by this woman who had my Compucard number memorized. The lady was not there for some reason and was replaced by this young man who wasn’t really that friendly. When I tried to buy my cigarettes using my Compucard, it didn’t work. (so you know Compucards are like credit cards) The man handed back and I walked away frustrated and smokeless. My thoughts were I could get a ciggie from one of the other girls and call the stupid Compucard company, those new damn-fangled inventions! When I called I received a recording that said the lines were overloaded. Oh well! I decided I better get started on my work, but just then the man in charge came in. My boss said all of us were let go. He also said it was the law, and that if we don’t leave, the army with machine guns were going to come in and make us leave. Wait a minute aren’t they supposed to protect us, not harm us? Seeing the army, I fled as fast as I could without sprinting my way home.
Once at home I tried everything to relax myself it didn’t work that well. I called the Compucard and got the same recording. Than I tried my mother and my best friend Moria. Neither of them picked up. I was getting very anxious at that point and tried Moria again. This time she answered and was over at my house in a matter of moments. Once here, Moria reported to me that every Compucard account with an F on it was frozen. Apparently, women can’t hold any property anymore so all our cash has been giving to the next male kin.
After our little chat I went and picked up my daughter from school; and shortly after, Luke, my husband came home. I started sobbing about the frozen accounts and Luke comforted me by saying he’d always be there for me.
Soon we decided we had to leave the United States and head to Canada. We got the fake passports and fake visa and faked that we were just going for a day trip. However, we were caught and we tried to run away. My daughter and I were caught together. I heard shots in the distance.
United States ==> Canada
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